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Sun, May. 15th, 2005, 07:44 pm
Opera and Anxiety

My downstairs neighbor is rehearsing for The Marriage of Figaro; I'm getting a little private opera show through the floor. I love to listen to her sing!

I just had a really bad attack of the "oh my god my ideas are horrible and why am I so lazy and I totally suck"s. On the bright side, I'm learning to deal with these attacks better: 45 minutes in bed with a kitty and a good book has helped me see that it might take a few years for me to do truly groundbreaking research, and that it's okay if there are other people working in my field with me. I like to have peers. I just sometimes wish my peers weren't so damn smart. :)

I've found, by the way, that there are few problems that 45 minutes in bed with a kitty and a good book won't solve. It's the Swiss Army Knife of my emotional life!

Also on the bright side, I've just written the first draft of a new poem - my first in nearly a year - and I think it's going to be quite beautiful.

Only 5,000 words left to write on the RPG project; then I move into Super Queen Editor mode!!

Mon, May. 16th, 2005 01:58 am (UTC)

I'm sure many of your peers think you are pretty damn smart as well... I know you are one of the smartest people I know... :)

What good book are you reading now??


Mon, May. 16th, 2005 02:39 am (UTC)

Ideas of Heaven, a set of linked short stories by Joan Silber. I read "My Shape," the first story in the book, last year and fell in love with it, so I picked up the whole collection when it came out in paperback. So far, the stories are kind of uneven, but the good ones are truly lovely and the less-good ones aren't bad at all, so I'm pleased overall.

It'll probably turn up in my May reading roundup, though I've got to do my April one first . . . oops. :)

Mon, May. 16th, 2005 02:13 pm (UTC)

*does the Jess is So Cool dance*


coccooned in soft warmth,
the hectic world can't impose:
a kitten in bed.