Because I am wet, and cold, and a little miserable. God, what an awful day. I can't believe I committed myself to walking three miles home tonight. What was I thinking?
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Started my PhD. Stood up to my parents in a big way. Accepted failure gracefully. That's a pretty good list.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?:
I resolved to keep in better touch with the people I love, and I didn't entirely fail. I actually reached out, used the phone, took advantage of LJ, that kind of thing. Now, for next year, I'd like to do it more - but hey, it's a start. I think my resolution for next year is going to be to stop being late. I run about five minutes late everywhere I go; I just have to reset my internal clock.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?:
Yes!! My dear friend Dana (as opposed to my sister Dana) had a beautiful daughter who is such a good baby that she's actually made me consider someday possibly thinking about having one. (Was that qualified enough? I don't want to give anyone the impression that I'm wanting kids, but Mazie really is fantastic.)
4. Did anyone close to you die?:
5. What countries did you visit?:
Canada! For the first time! Which was pretty awesome! I was supposed to go to Finland and Sweden in August to present at a conference, but I was sick (and somewhat unprepared) so I didn't end up going. Which, in retrospect, worked out for the best, because I later discovered that only part of my expenses would have been covered, and with the whole grad school thing, that's money I'm glad I didn't spend.
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?:
Academic publications. (I had 'em in 2003, but 2004 was kind of a dry year. -g-)
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?:
Dates? Um, I can hardly remember what happened last week. I'll always remember my birthday this year, though - a weekend surrounded by all the people I love who were there to spend time with me. It was the best birthday I've ever had. Moving in to the new apartment also had some very memorable moments, like the mad painting party. And, of course, this is the year of the First Thanksgiving I Hosted. It went remarkably well.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?:
Getting myself paid to go to school and study the things I've been passionate about for years. Also, writing a play (The End of the Line) for the Fringe Festival, which I couldn't have done without Isaac but still counts as a pretty damn awesome achievement. -g-
9. What was your biggest failure?:
Not finishing things I started; I'll point to NaNoWriMo, Gloria Mundi and Wiped! as things I started but didn't finish. On the other hand, they're all things I can go back to . . . .
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?:
I had major elbow-and-wrist problems for several months, resulting in numbness in my hands and the beginnings of muscle atrophy. Fortunately, physical therapy and good arm-caretaking has left me feeling much better.
11. What was the best thing you bought?:
This is going to sound dumb, but I really wanted a red couch. So I got one, and it makes me happy every time I sit on it.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?:
The obvious answer is maastrictian, because he's absolutely wonderful; he stands by me when I'm down and celebrates with me when I'm feeling good, and somehow he manages to love me through it all. Honorable mention, though, goes to immaculatepizza for getting his life together in a way that I'm not sure even he could have imagined a year ago. I'm really happy for him and proud that he's, you know, professionally gay.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?:
Um . . . my parents, but they don't mean to, so I don't know whether that counts. Beyond that, I don't spend time with people who appall or depress me.
14. Where did most of your money go?:
Beyond the basics of rent, food, health insurance and utilities? Books, gifts for other people, and a gym membership. Though there were also some relatively heavy one-time costs with furnishing the apartment . . . .
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?:
Moving into a new place that didn't give me SAD. Starting school. Possible writing contracts.
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?:
. . . none, really. I don't think that way.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
* happier or sadder?: both, if that makes sense
* thinner or fatter?: thinner, though not by as much as I was thinner by a couple of months ago; school is never good for my waistline
* richer or poorer?: I'm personally poorer, but together the boy and I are richer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?:
Writing. Spending time with friends. Working out. Those are the three things that tend to get sacrificed to what I perceive as my obligations, and I need to stop doing that. Maybe that's another New Year's resolution?
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?:
Worrying, answering email, procrastinating.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?:
I won't. I don't do Christmas. But on December 25th, I'll probably be curled up in bed with a book that I've been anticipating and as many cats as I can convince to come with me.
22. Did you fall in love in 2004?:
I fall in love with my boy all over again about once a week - so, yes.
23. How many one-night stands?:
24. What was your favorite TV program?:
Um, I watched some Buffy on DVD?
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?:
Not that I can think of. But I hate this one guy more than I hated him last year. Does that count?
26. What was the best book you read?:
This is not a fair question. The one that changed my life the most was Appetites, by Caroline Knapp, but that doesn't mean it was my favorite. I'm going to have to ponder this one some more. Maybe I'll make a "ten recommendations from 2004" list!
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?:
Ozomatli. Also, that I rather enjoy hip-hop.
28. What did you want and get?:
Love and books.
29. What did you want and not get?:
Fame and genius.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?:
The Incredibles. But only because most of the really wonderful movies I saw this year didn't actually come out this year.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?:
See "best day ever." Ten (or was it twelve?) of my closest friends showed up in the Berkshires for role-playing, eating of salmon eggs benedict, playing of really good German board games, walking in the snow, and general hilarity. It was wonderful, and took some of the sting out of turning 27 without having done the Great Things that I expect of myself.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?:
Finishing one of the writing projects I've got on my plate.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?:
Nerdy, but moving slowly toward funky grad-school nerd - I bought a long green furry coat and am planning to get my nose pierced.
34. What kept you sane?:
Books, cats and the people I love, not necessarily in that order. (The order tends to change depending on what's wrong . . . .)
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?:
36. What political issue stirred you the most?:
Women's rights. Hello, folks. We are human beings!
37. Who did you miss?:
hakamadare; Cat, who I was SO DAMN LUCKY to just see last week; Hook; Malka, who is now in Sri Lanka and who I must visit.
38. Who was the best new person you met?:
boffo9, satyrblade, and Bill, from the EGGPLANT group.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
Whatever it is, it's not as important as you think it is.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"I can't believe life's so complex, when I just wanna sit here and watch you undress."
[ ] I wish I was a different ethnicity.
[ ] I have had an eating disorder.
[X] I am short.
[ ]I am tall.
[ ] I prefer winter over summer.
[X] I am a geek.
[ ] I am a shopaholic.
[X] I am reasonably intelligent.
[X] I am attracted to girls.
[X] I am attracted to boys.
[X] I like British accents.
[ ] I smoke regularly
[ ] I smoke socially.
[X] I drink socially.
[ ] I drink regularly.
[X] I get drunk easily.
[ ] I do drugs.
[ ] I will never date a bad kisser.
[ ] I've lied to avoid kissing.
[ ] I brush my hair at least 50 times a night.
[X] I am religious.
[X] I am not religious but have morals. (Note: yes, I consider those both true.)
[ ] I lie frequently.
[ ] I am impulsive.
[X] I am hardworking.
[ ] I am good at History.
[X] I speak more than two languages.
[ ] I enjoy taking pictures.
[X] I like spending money on myself.
[X] I like spending money on others.
[X] I have a regular income.
[ ] I earn money on a job-by-job basis.
[X] I pay my own bills. (Well, WE pay OUR bills. Does that count?)
[ ] I rely on my parents for money. (But I don't complain when they buy me stuff . . . .)
[X] I can cook.
[X] I enjoy cleaning.
[X] Tidyness is a must in my life.
[ ] I like clutter.
[ ] My idea of good music is Britney Spears
[ ] I have heard of Blonde Redhead.
[ ] I enjoy Blonde Redhead.
[ ] I am fashion-conscious.
[X] I have good taste.
[X] People tell me I have good taste.
[X] I excel academically.
[ ] I am told I have yet to fulfill my potential.
[ ] I am good at sports.
[ ] I am good at certain sports.
[ ] I couldn't do sports to save my life.
[X] I am creative.
[ ] I am artistically inclined.
[ ] I want to be an artist when i grow up.
[ ] I want to be an engineer when I grow up.
[ ] I eat when I'm upset.
[ ] I cannot easily adapt to change.
[ ] I am interested in politics.
[ ] I have shoplifted.
[X] I download MP3s.
[ ] I've done underage drinking.
[ ] I've gone underage clubbing.
[X] I can dance reasonably well.
[ ] I can dance extremely well.
[ ] I dance like a cardboard gorilla.
[X] I can sing.
[ ] I sing like someone stepped on my foot.
[X] I can swim.
[X] I enjoy surveys.
[X] I enjoy surveys when I'm bored.
[X] I keep a journal.
[X] My teachers dont like me.
[ ] I enjoy controversy.
[X] I can be a bitch/bastard.
[ ] I have a thing for bad boys/girls.
[ ] I have tattoos
[ ] I've been in a nudist colony.
[X] I'm not sure if I want to have children.
[X] I'm not sure if I'll get married.
[X] I know who I will marry. (If I do marry . . . )
[X] I am interesting.
[X] I am a good liar.
[X] People enjoy talking to me.
[ ] I annoy people from time to time. (Who doesn't?)
[X] I am a born leader.
[ ] I've snuck out of the house.
[ ] I enjoy belching.
[ ] I have a foot fetish.
[ ] I have a shoe fetish.
[ ] I watch Sex and the City.
[ ] I don't think Sarah Jessica Parker is pretty.
[ ] I want to be J.Lo.
[ ] I cut myself.
[ ] I've cut myself.
[ ] I hate people who pretend to be suicidal.
[ ] I hate popular people.
[ ] I think cheerleading is a sport.
[ ] I'm photogenic.
[ ] I live in Chucks.
[ ] I think graffiti is art.
[ ] I've dated a criminal.
[X] I have been cheated on.
[X] I have cheated on someone.
[X] I have a temper.
[X] I like playgrounds.
[ ] I dance in the rain.
[X] I am obsessed with Shakespeare.
[ ] I have tanlines. still the summer ones
[ ] My favorite color is pink.
[ ] My favorite color is black.
[ ] I would classify myself as emo.
[X] I'm musically inclined.
[X] I like listening to music.
[ ] I like music-blasting cars.
[ ] Thongs are comfortable.
[ ] I like flip-flops.
[X] I know what monogamy is.
[X] and I believe in it.
[ ] I want to be a social worker when I grow up.
[X] I have siblings.
[ ] My siblings annoy me.
[ ] I am an insomniac
[X] I remember my dreams
[ ] I can do lucid dreaming